from my other blogs I may sound like a well brought up guy but,the truth is I'm not....I came from a broken-family with a broken-heart.My life was a great one when i was 4-5 years old my mother left my father after his business when down hill when I was not even 1 month old i suffer brain damage that is my memories are very bad it slows my learning process and that is all i fell on my head more than 10 times already and I don't know how many more falls will happen.
I strongly believe I should be born on the year of the horse because I cherish freedom the most out of all the good zodiac signs.but my father limits my freedom it bad enough I'm in a broken family with no mother and no one that can understand me and my feelings.My third brothers the person that understands me the most is understand 60% of me or so my father only know 20% of me and that all....Its not that I'm saying that I'm mysterious maybe I'm just a misunderstood guy.
My life is full of misunderstandings and coincidence,I never really had the chance to experienced a normal kid's life as badly as I wanted to my dream is to become a friction novelist or a canid-biologist which I believe will never happen to me my family does not give a good support boost at all its a cool world only my brothers are reliable my father is a bastard he stares at me like I just killed his mother who is living in my house! He always threaten me in every way he can.Now I'm writing a novel but I don't have a very good hand-writing he says that if I have bad writings he'l tear my novels to bits and if he does I'll never talk to him ever again for the rest of my life and have minimum contact with him.
Hes also very stubborn he never listens to me and if there is a problem he will blame it on me and my brothers.If he breaks nothing happens at all if we do he'll beat us up he puts passwords on my laptop given by my brother!He say its good for me but screw him he never cares about me all he calls me to do is read book read book read book If i don't get all As he'll beat me or torture me like rubbing chillies at my lips he believes other people more than his own son! He even caned me with a lead pipe and boat paddle which is not caning but beating.It made my heart burn and soul cry every time I see a kid with a happy family complete with a mom and dad and see them laugh and smile.It not that I hate seeing people happy it just make me wonder how will it be like to have a family complete with a father and mother and brothers and sisters with no caning and no scolding.May be I'm being to sensitive. Or maybe I'm just longing for a warm loving family,I can never let a single sad thought go by with out crying literally.
And something he uses his leather belt to hit me. In my class I in the top 10 and in the whole form i got into the top 50 and he was not even happy and he end up caning me saying why don't you get all As?This stuff are 100% true and the place I live in I don't have any friends at all its a lonely neighborhood. Because of that he want me to go to a school far away from home.He always call me stupid but in fact I know more than he does,hes like his stuck in the stone age buying a mp4 he buys a broken one,he got cheated buying a laptop for 800 but it can't be used.He was rich but he was greedy he wanted more......He still on the stock market from the last 20 years until now.He has limited vocabulary and he uses hash words with out regard of other people's feelings.
My second brother always likes to control me if I did something he does not like he will hit me hard on the head or slap me in the face he always wants the best and will never step down he alway whats to win everything.I listen to this every time stuff like this happens to me some of you might know this song it resembles me but i don't have a geng.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8cCMkHM8i.
We unscrupulous groups of gangs that we ignore our elders as to what we are watching the growth of discontent only trouble is that nothing you can what we That we don't give a damn what we do not look down on the vision is that everything between us Why do not the language gradually Wealth wall between us Helpless parents and teachers we do not want to curse roundly standards of this society is. beyond our limited imagination with will read it only bound to be a good boy for example do not think we look down on others to tell their own strength than. How many people care about why we lost the wrong direction for us to think about who is going to become rotten apple in fact why we have to ask ourselves to fight for all the praise you gave us exactly how much hope.Refrain tears have dried, the future is very bleak lost souls, how do we should punish the help of growth we are imposing a lifetime of despair and then let us Fortunately, some people born without a birth that is. their battle we are alone at the crossroads of the wind and rain do not let our lives desperate cry
This is a massage to all of the readers do not be come like my father and please do not limit your child's freedom do not boxed them in teaching them in their early life make learning easier which he does not even do.he never give me what I want and give an excuse that I do not take care of my toys and stuff the best way to understand your child is to remember your childhood good or bad its still important like the your first love or the first award you won or your first cry on a sad movie that is one way which I bet you can....well better than my fathers does anyway.
I am not being a pervert but maybe for the females, your first bra or something important to the females and guys you should try to spend more time with your child their made out of your own flash and blood well mostly your wife and don't be a bastard like you did something with your girl friend and later dump the baby this type of stuff happens almost everyday it comes out in the news.
And yes i have at lease 100000 times more animal knowledge and 10000 times more weapon making weapon knowledge in my room I made out of household objects like them bow i use a 'rotan' its a type of thing all kids hate, people uses it to cane us, for bow string I use yarn for arrows i use a wooden stick chip at the edge and use plastic reinforced with cardboard anyway I use it for target practice when I'm bored and I bought a wooden katana for swordplay and chain for a whip so you can say I'm trained with daggers,bow,katana and chain and yes I can used to using guns like dual pistols and snipers (p.s. its okey to let your child learn this because it can be use for self-defense but teach them closely you don't want them to poke their eyes out or snapping their neck with the chain.I'm not gonna tell you how to make stuff like a spike trap and stuff like that so don't hope for it spears are easy so are axes and shuriken.
So bye for now remember moral of the story don't control your child to much they hate it try thinking do you want that you can only go on facbook once every 2 weeks for 1 hour only( I don't have facbook or any other social network.So work hard and be a great parent one more thing teaching your child to read at an early age will help a lot too.One most important thing is never gambles and play the stock markets and smoke and drink alcohol and go on drugs and most importantly a loving family is a happy family and for me.....The only thing I can do is pray for him to change and never have to use my last resort to make him realize my feelings and to force him to change. You can pretty much compare me to a crab hard on the outside soft in the inside.One last thing before I go never underestimated the word family said by your children it stand for Father And Mother I Love You.But it can never be said by a broken family like the one i have.....
So to all the kids out there please be happy with your completed family.If you don't and have a abusive parent which you can't love.....Please don't hesitate to report to the child welfare department.The stuff that controls us the most are emotions and memories it can affect out life style,personality,temper,friendliness and a lot more memories are one of the most impotent things in the world thanks to the despot above.I try my best to show a friendly nature but it does not help few people knows my real personalities and fewer knows my interests and no one knows whats on my mind maybe only god knows.So farewell
